I sincerely hope you're not one of those people who think writing letters to someone is cowardly. I want to make sure you understand I'm not writing out of fear of talking, but because I know I will get my truest, deepest feelings out this way the best. I want to let you know how much I have enjoyed getting to know you. You are so kind, witty, gentle, intelligent and absolutely beautiful. I know you don't see it but I do. When I first saw you, I instantly knew you would throw feelings at me and I would catch them instantly. This scared me. I've been feeling so lost on ways to tell you but I am not the person to handle feelings well at all. I have so much guilt and resentment in my heart because I lied to you and said I wanted to see where this goes. However, I knew perfectly well I didn't want to, deep down in my heart. I never wanted to accept it. I tend to start things when I'm not ready, only to realize later I have bitten off more than I can chew. I can't let this misery consume my life anymore, the misery that I'm consciously hurting someone again. The main purpose of this letter is to tell you that NONE of this is your fault. This is a problem buried deep inside my heart and I assumed maybe, just maybe it would go away if I give myself a chance with you. As you said, I have to start somewhere and I've been thinking about it an unhealthy amount of times but I'm not ready to start anywhere with anyone. You are the perfect person and it disgusts me to throw this opportunity with you away but this is for the best. I don't want you to think this is because of you or your fault. However, knowing what I know about you, I think you will more than likely blame yourself. I would too to be honest because you're quite similar to me in some ways. You deserve someone who is completely sure of themselves when it comes to accepting feelings and developing a relationship. You deserve the very best in life and I have no doubt in my mind things are going to work out for you. You are so strong and talented, you can get through anything. I thought I could do it Roan but I can't. If I could by some miracle, I would with you. I have never come across someone who has understood me the way you do, ever. I can't change how you will respond from this, or if you respond at all. You can burn this if you feel the need, or you can keep it close to you as a reminder that you've basically impacted my life for the better. Maybe one day you will realize how special you are and I wish for someone to make you feel special too, one day. But, I can't be that person. From the bottom of my heart, I am so sorry for hurting you. That's something I will have to live with now, that I've tainted a fragile heart all because I thought I could accept feelings. I still want you in my life but of course that's not for me to decide, I don't blame you if you never want to see or speak to me again. Thank you for being who you are to me Roan.

Love, Georgia.

I sincerely hope you're not one of those people who think writing letters to someone is cowardly. I want to make sure you understand I'm not writing out of fear of talking, but because I know I will get my truest, deepest feelings out this way the best. I want to let you know how much I have enjoyed getting to know you. You are so kind, witty, gentle, intelligent and absolutely beautiful. I know you don't see it but I do. When I first saw you, I instantly knew you would throw feelings at me and I would catch them instantly. This scared me. I've been feeling so lost on ways to tell you but I am not the person to handle feelings well at all. I have so much guilt and resentment in my heart because I lied to you and said I wanted to see where this goes. However, I knew perfectly well I didn't want to, deep down in my heart. I never wanted to accept it. I tend to start things when I'm not ready, only to realize later I have bitten off more than I can chew. I can't let this misery consume my life anymore, the misery that I'm consciously hurting someone again. The main purpose of this letter is to tell you that NONE of this is your fault. This is a problem buried deep inside my heart and I assumed maybe, just maybe it would go away if I give myself a chance with you. As you said, I have to start somewhere and I've been thinking about it an unhealthy amount of times but I'm not ready to start anywhere with anyone. You are the perfect person and it disgusts me to throw this opportunity with you away but this is for the best. I don't want you to think this is because of you or your fault. However, knowing what I know about you, I think you will more than likely blame yourself. I would too to be honest because you're quite similar to me in some ways. You deserve someone who is completely sure of themselves when it comes to accepting feelings and developing a relationship. You deserve the very best in life and I have no doubt in my mind things are going to work out for you. You are so strong and talented, you can get through anything. I thought I could do it Roan but I can't. If I could by some miracle, I would with you. I have never come across someone who has understood me the way you do, ever. I can't change how you will respond from this, or if you respond at all. You can burn this if you feel the need, or you can keep it close to you as a reminder that you've basically impacted my life for the better. Maybe one day you will realize how special you are and I wish for someone to make you feel special too, one day. But, I can't be that person. From the bottom of my heart, I am so sorry for hurting you. That's something I will have to live with now, that I've tainted a fragile heart all because I thought I could accept feelings. I still want you in my life but of course that's not for me to decide, I don't blame you if you never want to see or speak to me again. Thank you for being who you are to me Roan.

Love, Georgia.

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