how could i ever think i am capable enough to show you the kind of love you deserve after
How could I ever think I am capable enough to show you the kind of love you deserve after all I've said and done to bring you so much hurt..?
The answer is - I can not - on my own. Only with Gods help am I truly capable of showing you every ounce of that love. God is love and apart from Him I am nothing and can do nothing. There are no words in existence that would paint how sorry I am, yet how grateful at the same time. I wish to God this never had to happen. But had you not obeyed God with your life and was brought into mine - I might very well have never made it out of the hell I called home. I was never equipped with the tools I needed to fight my hell. Because God chose YOUR path and mine to cross - I finally got fitted with the armor I needed to fight back. I know some days it's hard to notice a fight. But believe me when I say it's forever in me to stand and fight, no matter how it might look. Besides our Savior you will always be the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. There will never be anyone else I would rather have, by my side, in a storm. Despite the lies of the enemy, despite the ugliness of this unfortunate circumstance, it has always been my unshakable love for you that has driven me to be a better man in The Lord. You are my other half. My best friend. I thank God for the birth of you. And I am eternally sorry for everything that has happened due to this storm.
I will forever love you!<div style="height:9px"><span style="font-size: 11pt;">Forgive me Rachel!</span>
Always your husband,<div style="height:9px"><span style="font-size: 11pt;"> Rob</span>