don’t know if I hurt him or not or if I just made him tired but I hope that one day I can apologize. He was right about me and I feel like I made myself a burden. He didn’t have to deal with me but he still chose to maybe that’s why I feel like I love him so much. Or maybe it’s because I feel the need to love him. I didn’t mean it when I said I wish I never met you or the day I met you being the worse day of my life. I felt as though if Iied and told myself that I hated you I wouldn’t feel this way about you anymore. My biggest fear will forever be losing you. Meeting you was one of the best things to ever happen to me and I’d do it all over again if I was given a second chance. You’ve made me realize a lot about myself and I appreciate that. I always imagined us being and growing together but failed to understand that WE cannot grow together if I’m nowhere close to your level. And I’m not talking about the age gap I’m talking about our mentality. We did not have to think alike but to be on the same page. Honestly I have to admit that I’m selfish. I never wanted to see you be with anybody else but now I’m starting to see that right now anyone else is better than me. You deserve anybody that’ll make you happy. I just hope we don’t go a whole year without talking. They say that you only know you love someone when you let them go but that’s not my case. I knew from the jump that I loved you whether you’re my friend or boyfriend and I just didn’t know what to do with that love. Right now I’ve decided to focus on myself but I do believe that I actually love you and I hope that doesn’t change. This is to future you ig if we ever decide to talk again. I miss you and I’m very sorry.


P.S if anything were to happen to me this is for Jamarcus jones


8/2/2022

don’t know if I hurt him or not or if I just made him tired but I hope that one day I can apologize. He was right about me and I feel like I made myself a burden. He didn’t have to deal with me but he still chose to maybe that’s why I feel like I love him so much. Or maybe it’s because I feel the need to love him. I didn’t mean it when I said I wish I never met you or the day I met you being the worse day of my life. I felt as though if Iied and told myself that I hated you I wouldn’t feel this way about you anymore. My biggest fear will forever be losing you. Meeting you was one of the best things to ever happen to me and I’d do it all over again if I was given a second chance. You’ve made me realize a lot about myself and I appreciate that. I always imagined us being and growing together but failed to understand that WE cannot grow together if I’m nowhere close to your level. And I’m not talking about the age gap I’m talking about our mentality. We did not have to think alike but to be on the same page. Honestly I have to admit that I’m selfish. I never wanted to see you be with anybody else but now I’m starting to see that right now anyone else is better than me. You deserve anybody that’ll make you happy. I just hope we don’t go a whole year without talking. They say that you only know you love someone when you let them go but that’s not my case. I knew from the jump that I loved you whether you’re my friend or boyfriend and I just didn’t know what to do with that love. Right now I’ve decided to focus on myself but I do believe that I actually love you and I hope that doesn’t change. This is to future you ig if we ever decide to talk again. I miss you and I’m very sorry.


P.S if anything were to happen to me this is for Jamarcus jones


8/2/2022

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