My dearest Telehubby, Today was one of those emotionally trying days for us. I remember thinking to myself as I was getting ready to meet you that we were going to have a good time today. I even re-read your text from last night saying "All I know is that I'm gonna be happy with you!!" And for the most part, yes, I could definitely say that we were genuinely happy. It was only during the later part of the day when things abruptly changed. I don't know how it came to be but all I do know is that we had another round of miscommunication which inevitably led to my outburst of anger and frustration. My love, I am deeply sorry for all the hurt I have caused you not only today but for every single time I lodged my temper against you. It is sad to admit that I am no longer in control of my emotions and that I have become the vulnerable woman I've always feared of becoming. I have tried my hardest to rationalize that this is what love is supposed to be. Love is destroying all the walls you've built around yourself and opening up to that one special person who will accept you for who you really are. And that is why I found myself unconsciously letting you in, and allowing you to be a part of my already chaotic world. By letting you in, I have discovered a lot of things (and feelings) I never knew I was capable of. By letting you in, I learned I was not as emotionally grounded as I'd hoped to be. I have showed you a side of me that nobody has ever seen, and somehow I thought I was fortunate to have someone I can freely express my emotions to. No pretenses, no judgements. I could finally be myself. But the thing is, love is not as simple as that. As much as we want to be fully accepted for our own individuality, we are only humans and I believe we will always find ways to deteriorate our own happiness. Because of this, I have come to realize something very, very important which is the very reason I am writing this. There has been several times in the past when I would tell you my expectations and in return, you would tell me that you will work hard to meet them. It is only fair that I do the same. My love, I cannot promise you the smoothest of transitions but I promise I will try my hardest to work on controlling my temper and to remain calm during difficult situations. Above all, I promise that I will always resolve to be happy with you at the end of the day. As you already know, our love is rooted in complexity and hard work, and that is why I will willingly do my best to make this work. Because I want to be with you. Just be with you. Always and forever, Your Only Eunicorn