You know, I write much better when you are around. I get much more done. I could go on all day about how much you save me from turning in something that looks like a first grader wrote it but just for once I'm not sending this to be edited. I had this realization the other night when I had the kind of writers block that probably made Mr. Thompson blow his head off. I just could not get anything done, that is until I saw your photo. A photo from years ago of you in a Cinderella costume drinking Shiner Bock Blonde, your favorite beer if you ever drink beer at all. I saw that photo and realized that you have always been my muse. whether its writing a song with you in mind or creating a comic book script about a heroin junkie heroine you are always my biggest influence. By the way did you know heroine actually means a brave WOMEN? Bet ya did. Bet ya would have caught that before I told you 'cause you's talk words right. Anyways, it's not like every word I write is some obsessive concomitant of you. No, I just write better and much more when you're around. I know I do most of my writing on my phone so sometimes you might feel ignored when my face is glued to a Iphone screen and you're sitting right across from me in need of attention. For that I am sorry but as you already all you need for my attention is a baby voice speaking my name. My point is this: I'm a better writer when you are around. When I am staring at a unfinished sentence you either run your fingers through my hair or lay a quick kiss on my forehead. That alone somehow gives me the strength to carry on and hit my deadline. Nobody in this world believes in me the way you do and to have the most pulchritudinous (perfect word for you) women I have ever seen have so much confidence in me gets me through each page and allows me to take as many chances with my work as I choose to because I know I will always have my biggest fan supporting me. And in all honesty it is mostly your presence that makes me write more, better, and faster. When you sit on the bed with me with your book or your homework all I need to do is look over at you and I am able to charge on with my work.Clio, Euterpe, Erato, Melpomene, Polyhymnia, Terpsichore, Thalia and Urania. My Calliope. I anticipate the days when you just let me just sit with you while you conduct your work. (even though its hard to convince you because you hate it.) Working beside you makes me feel like I have a true partner in this world. Somebody to bounce ideas off of and somebody to dig my face into when I'm overwhelmed by deadlines and writers block. So now I'm writing this with your picture at my desk because you should know how much you do for this small time comic book writer. How much you help get this Realtor/ Chinese delivery guy through life. When I am with you I feel like I can accomplish anything and take any risk because even if I fail (and I have) I know you will be there to drag your fingers through my hair and whisper to me "It'll be all right baby. Its just a set back. I know you'll do great things." shit, writing that quote makes me choke up because nobody in my life has ever repeated those words to me as many times as you have. Nobody in my life has ever been SO ready to take this crazy ride of life with me knowing we could very well crash and burn. I know that even if the whole world goes down in flames I will hold you so close in the fire that our ashes would mix in the wind and blow over the aftermath. oooo I like that line, see what i'm saying baby? You make me a better person. You inspire me to work harder because more than I want anything in this world (being a writer, a game changing Realtor, or wing stop) I mostly just want to take care of you. Or at least convince myself I am when in reality it has always been you who has taken sweet tender care of my lost soul. And boy, I was so lost before I met you. So this is my long winded way of saying if you're ever just laying about or working on some homework and you want a little company, nothing would make me happier than to plant my happy ass right next to yours and work on our futures together. Side by side. Partners. When things get hard I think of Caroline and the rest is easy.