******A vintage yet not so antique curse******
Farheen Ahmed, 20 - A curator of everything vintage and antique. So here I am with a vintage letter, hoping this entices you enough to give it a good read. (No emoticons/ emojis used because obviously, they are neither vintage nor antique)
The title is dramatic, yes, but in the most truest form possible.
I have a curse, 'vintage' because i have been dealing with it for long but 'not so antique' because luckily I know people who have the same curse, a CURSE TO BE EXPRESSIVE.
So what does this curse do?
It restricts me from emotions like Let Go, Big deal, Doesn't Matter or I give a fuck.
It makes sure that I'm constantly kept in thoughts about things I have no control of.
It will make my life a living hell (for sometime at least) if I don't spill out each and every word, thoughts and emotions.
The following things are just said to live it up to my curse, hence attain some peace about it.
To start with the hardest thing: I like you, as much as someone can do on tinder (for a day) and on WhatsApp (for... hmmmmmm... that's a tricky one to say).
You're 20, you play polo (which is the coolest thing. I dont know any other
girl who plays polo). You are already an entrepreneur and you are so focused about your work (I adore you for it, as mentioned a hundred times before). yes, for the above mentioned awesomeness, the
credit goes to me and my stalking skills.
And then we spoke, man you sound sweet!!! genuine, concerned and chivalrous. You cook mutton biryani, I mean what else can you do? Or... What else is
left to do sounds more appropriate.
Let's go back to where it all started...
Out first
chat: you mentioned on day one that you are a very busy person. To which, my response was 'I am from Bombay, frequent Delhi for work , blah blah blah, is it worth your time? And you responded with your mobile number. Cool!
I dint really pay much attention to you until I saw a text from you on the night before I leave for Bombay, saying "I was contemplating we could talk over the phone once". I was flattered!
The conclusion after the call: This girl is just wow! Interesting........
Touchdown Bombay: back to routine, friends, family, Bruno, a happier work place with like minded people around and a thought of never going to Delhi again, hopefully.
But then 'Karan we need you in Delhi again, major crisis" - a humble request by my CEO. And in my mind, Pros and Cons baby, pros and con's... Final count: Cons - Infinite / Pros - #1 Farheen (She will be a highlight for this trip, show you around and maybe she charms you enough to not care about the cons). #2 Professionally a better opportunity to stand out amongst the rest in the team.
Touchdown Delhi:
*Indifferent about the pros, Farheen has been taking you for granted, because obviously you are in Bombay and there is no hope for anything fruitful to happen, let's tell her you're in Delhi, fingers crossed*
The response: "I could have jumped on my bed with joy when I saw your snapchat, but I wasn't on bed", " I felt so bad when you left last time, I was like shit I wanted to meet this guy but anyway, he is in Bombay and not coming back, and now look you are here", "I wanna show you so many places, the river side, the nameless restaurant", " I have so much work to do, so many assignments, but I will keep all that away and make time for you"
In my mind: WOW!!!
*sings 'I'm so excited.. No need to hide it' ...
'Ahh Ahh Ahh Ahh Staying Alive , Staying Alive'
And a couple of more songs.
Today:
Right, definitely completely opposite to what I felt the day I got here .. Sings 'What a wicked game to play to make me this way... What a wicked thing to do to let me dream of you... And I want to fall in love (this world is going to break your heart)'
One of my favorite song, hear it once, its beautiful.
Days in Delhi passed by initially looking forward to what you got in store for me, then my sister came in, we visited some really good restaurant and I decided to take you to a couple of them. (Pot Belly Cafe, Yeti Himalayan cuisine and Bottle soda, a parsi restaurant at cyber city). Also I thought of this letter for the 1st time on Sunday the 15th of Feb when I was in pot belly cafe. Some how I was confident of not hearing from you the entire week.
Final words
I adore you, and I will continue to do so because it has nothing to do with my expectation. You are adorable!
I know you told me that you are terrible in this - maintaining relations or talking to people but I tried as hard as I could to help you out with that.
I have certain beliefs
#1 No one is busy, it's all about priorities
#2 A greeting a day can make wonders happen
#3 No one needs the other person, its all about the want.
I have been working since I was 17, started in a call center, working 16 hours a day (double shift) for half of each month, would barely manage to sleep 4 hours a day. I know how busy one can get.
All said and done, finally out of the curse when it comes to Farheen Ahmed, can now let go, at least until I'm back in Delhi, which I pray to never happen again (I'm done with it now, no more pros, you see)
I do hope to meet you someday in Mumbai or anywhere else in the world. Whenever or where ever it is, I swear I'll be a call away! That's all it will take. Get mutton biryani when you come to Bombay. And yes, I haven't forgotten about Goa, I'll be up for that too.
All the best Farheen with your work, you will have me as a client soon or at least get stuff for others. I had planned to send you pics of vintage bikes from IBW, but couldn't go as Im in Delhi, however will get it from someone and share it with you.
Bye Farheen *kisses, hugs* (As I said, no emoticons)
P.S: I have a folder in my phone with a single pic of each girl (Girlfriends, flings, anyone and everyone special to me, whether for a minute, day or years). You have been added to it.
This was written on Friday the 19th of Feb, will be sent on Monday or Tuesday as I get my laptop back from service. Need to make it look vintage.
Just message me 'I did read all of it' (Exact Words) when you finish reading.
Loads of adoration,
- You know who.